my soulmates..

special

unconditional

judge-free

understanding

loving

rare

encouragement

"Maybe our girlfriends are our soulmates and guys are just people to have fun with.- Candace Bushnell"

I'm not a princess,life's not fairytale

"Obsessed by a fairy tale, we spend our lives searching for a magic door and a lost kingdom of peace."
I'm over it... living in this fairytale world. Many were taught to believe that our relationships are always going to end with some magical fairytale ending... well snap back to reality ladies. Life isn't a fairytale, lets not kid ourselves. The prince isn't at home staring out his window, with a box of tissues and a bottle of wine, still crying and upset over your breakup. No way.. he is out drinking and hanging out with all the not so good looking girls in the kingdom.
I don't live in a damn Disney movie were everything always has a perfect ending. Even though we aren't together I catch myself dreaming about all the wonderful, magical possibilities that could be. What a fool I am...he is someone who hates being alone, so its time to stop lying to myself and step into reality. Cause this is the way it is.I guess it's just going to take some time to get used to it.

sing it...

"I'm just a summer girl
I wear my flip flops
when I let my hair down
that's when the party starts
and who needs a boyfriend, I've got my girlfriends
and when we get together, the summer never ends"

"The ASU Chapter"

I can't believe it is here, I am graduating from college.Finally! Its a weird feeling because graduating from college is something I have thought about since I was just a little girl, but I never really thought I would get here. But here I am, all grown up and ready to start a new chapter of my life. So here's to this chapter of my life("The ASU Chapter") and to the start of a whole new chapter! Let the adventures begin...

It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are. ~e.e. cummings

kind of obessed..

back on the market...

Missing:Happiness

I was blog hunting for some new favorite blogs and came across Curls and Coffee Her recent post, "On being, You" was just what I needed to read. Happiness.. it has definitely been on my mind lately.Where is my happiness?How do I find it again...

happiness doesn't come from achieving or becoming

all the things you think you should,

it comes from finding out

who you really need/want/would love to be,

(or who you already are)

and then happily embracing that person.

15 DAYS

real life fairytale

Some day my prince will come
Some day we'll meet again
And away to his castle we'll go
To be happy forever I know.

it's okay to cry...

its been rough the past couple of months.
everything is changing around me.
and i don't do "change".
sometimes all you need is your best friend
who tells you its okay to be sad and cry
or if you ever want to talk i'm here
or i hope you know i will always be there for you
i'm so lucky to have someone that i know
will never leave my side

“Friendships get you thru it all”

this is my hope..

"for what it's worth: it's never too late or , in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. there's no time limit, stop whenever you want. you can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. we can make the best or the worst of it. i hope you make the best of it. and i hope you see things that startle you. i hope you feel things you never felt before. i hope you meet people with a different point of view. i hope you live a life you're proud of. if you find that you're not, i hope you have the strength to start all over again."

- benjamin button

o.m.g I just found this great site Damn You Auto Correct. Totally makes me chuckle because this happens to me literally once a day... Enjoy!

In a better place

What a blessing my little man was for 14 years, today I lost a little piece of my heart, my childhood.He was there for all the tears of Jr. high and High school, he made sure to never leave my side.He only gave me love.
<3 Barkley<3

"Dogs are our link to paradise. They don't know evil or jealousy or discontent. To sit with a dog on a hillside on a glorious afternoon is to be back in Eden, where doing nothing was not boring--it was peace."
- Milan Kundera

R kelly Love

if tonight is my last...

I have many favorite artists but this is one of my recent favorites.
Laura Izibor, who has been appearing in One Tree Hill
has stolen my heart, her voice takes my breath away.
Enjoy dolls..

1. More sleep
2. Catch up on TV shows I've been meaning to watch
3.Family time
4.Long workout sessions

I'm currently obessing over...

Seriously every time I watch this I get teary eyed..I'm totally obsessed with Glee this season!

FIGHT.

Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that you are a good person and good friend. What is meant will end up good if what is not won’t. Relationships are worth fighting for but sometimes you can’t be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don’t, you must move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Hopefully, people realize great things when they come around and don’t lose something real. Always fight, until you can’t fight anymore, and be fought for -Anonymous.

sunday funday

Spending the day decorating the house..December 2010 is going to be incredible

"It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas;
Soon the bells will start,
And the thing that will make them ring is the carol that you sing
Right within your heart."

guilty pleasures..

It may be weird to some but every year I can't wait for the Victoria Secret Fashion show!Which if you didn't know is on Nov 30th.. Anyways I found this on *Jadorelash* blog and thought this was adorable. Enjoy.

Bright leaves..
Crisp autumn weather..
warm thoughts..
and grateful feelings...
I'm so thankful for the life I have been given.I am so blessed. This Thanksgiving was a full of changes and firsts for me. It was the first day that I spent Thanksgiving away from my family.The first Thanksgiving without "him". The first not spending the day cooking. It was definitely a strange feeling waking up today,but it turned out to be the most wonderful day. I have so much to be thankful for and today is a day to stop and remember what really matters in life. I'm thankful for my family. I'm thankful for a wonderful grandad.I'm thankful for the two most amazing best friends a girl could have.I'm thankful for the Englert's for adopting me today and being so loving to me. I'm thankful for new and old friendships.I'm thankful for love and the one's who love me.I'm thankful that hard work pays off. I'm thankful for the opportunity to pursue what I want in life. I'm thankful for my little weenie marleigh may.... And so MUCH more!

"Thanksgiving Day is a jewel, to set in the hearts of honest men, but be careful that you do not take the day and leave out the gratitude." ~ E.P. Powell

Tuesday night movies

It's just been one of those nights,I needed my Sex in the City. For the people who know me, you know that Sex in the City is one of my comfort TV shows. Lets just say Sex in the City has always been there for me during a b.r.e.a.k up. So tonight I have been watching both of the movies and I must say that movie #1 is still the best. I just adore the love story between Carrie and Big, I even envy what they have. My all time favorite scene is when Carrie finds all of Big's emails to her, I am sucker for a good love story.Anywhooo awhile back my amazing best friend, bought me the book Love Letters of Great Men, so tonight I decided to pull it out and re-read a few. Still after reading most of them, my favorite still has to be....





Beethoven - Love Letters of Great Men

Good morning, on July 7


Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

ever thine
ever mine
ever ours

love her..

now this..I'll miss...

Where we love is home – home that our feet may leave, but not our hearts.
~Oliver Wendell Holmes

song of the day..

I've fallin in love with Ellie Goulding..thanks Brooke!!

little bite of heaven..

I found this great recipe on this blog Scraps of Color, but of course being (Gluten Intolerant) I have to adjust the recipe-- just a little bit! So instead of the all purpose flour replace it with Pamela's Baking and Pancake mix ( **which has some baking soda is already added to the mix)

Pumpkin Spice Blossoms
Yields ~24 cookies

1-1/2 cup all purpose flour ( can change out)
¼ teaspoon baking soda
½ teaspoon baking powder
½ teaspoon salt
½ cup butter (room temperature)
1/3 cup + 1 tablespoon granulated sugar
1/3 cup light brown sugar
1 teaspoon vanilla
1 large egg
24 Hershey's pumpkin spice kisses

1. Preheat oven to 350. Lightly grease baking sheets or line with parchment/aluminum foil.
2. In a large bowl, sift together dry ingredients (flour, baking soda, baking powder, and salt). Set aside. In another bowl, beat butter, sugars, and vanilla extract until well combined. Add egg and beat batter until smooth. Gradually add dry ingredients into wet ingredients. Do not over-beat batter.
3. Put dough in refrigerator for about half an hour. Roll batter into 1 inch balls and place on baking sheet. Bake cookies for about 8-10 minutes, or until they are a light golden brown color. Remove from oven and transfer to cooling rack. While the cookies are baking, it is best to unwrap the kisses and set them aside.
4. Within 1-2 minutes, take unwrapped kisses and gently push into center of cookie. Let sit for at least 5 minutes & then enjoy!

daily reminder..

It may sound super cheesy & I wouldn't be the first to admit it
But I have insecurities, but I think it is super
important to remind yourself daily
to be secure with who you are now,
at this very moment.

special little monster..

I teared up tonight when I saw this incredible story on ABC news, about a little boy who has loves his little monsters. Aidan Reed was diagnosed a few months back with acute lymphoblastic leukemia. Over the last few months,he has been in and out of the hospital receiving chemotherapy, infections, spinal taps and other painful procedures.While in the hospital Aidan started to draw pictures of his favorite knights, jesters, scary clowns and aliens.To help pay for his hospital expensives his Aunt decided to post his adorable pictures on Etsy.com for $12 a drawing.Aidan's drawings are a totally hit, he has sold almost 2,500 at $12 apiece, raising almost $30,000.

"Have you ever wondered what marks our time here? If one life can really make an impact on the world... or if the choices we make matter? I believe they do. And I believe that one man can change many lives. For better... or worse.-OTH"

NKOTB-BSB

I love.. I love.. I was sitting on the couch giggling to my self! It doesn't get much better than New Kids on the Block and Backstreet Boys. Okay that's a lie, it would be 20 times better if NSYNC was there too!

splendid sundays..

"Life is about not knowing, having to change,

taking the moment and making the best of it,

without knowing what's going to happen next.

Delicious ambiguity...."

- Gilda Radner

my baby..

“She is your friend, your partner, your defender, your dog. You are her life, her love, her leader. She will be yours, faithful and true, to the last beat of her heart. You owe it to her to be worthy of such devotion"-- Anon

I found this great blog who has inspired me to take on the same challenge, every week I'll dedicate an entire post to quotes..

words that really matter,

words to remember & live by.

"Life is about not knowing, having to change,

taking the moment and making the best of it,

without knowing what's going to happen next.

Delicious ambiguity...."

- Gilda Radner

"So just live, have s times and make mistakes,
but never second guess where you've been, where you are,
and most of all where you're going."
-Sex and the City.

"Family isn't about whose blood you have.

It's about who you care about."

- Trey Parker & Matt Stone

nothing makes me happier..

A friend is one that knows you as you are, understands where you have been, accepts what you have become, and still, gently allows you to grow...

i'll take a dare...

"I will dare to just do what I do. Be just what I am. And dance whenever I want to." Beverly Williams
This quote captures exactly where I am at in life

I have dared to do what I want to do and have embraced exactly who I feel like I am suppose to

SPLENDID DECOR ..

I absolutely died when I saw this at Restoration Hardware, the Circa 1880 London Map.I studied "old London" all summer so it kinda has a special place in my heart. This would be amazing in my new place!

I found these individual letters on Etsy and have fallen in LOVE with them and the idea of creating your own word collage!

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all good things are wild and free

I never actually thought I would do it,its never really crossed my mind. But I have broken free of Facebook. I'm not gonna say that this is a forever thing, that I won't someday return. But for now, it is something that I need to do for my own sanity,and my over all happiness.

and counting...

40 days until Christmas Day...OMG